At times, I may hold back what I want to say. As I feel it is necessary for you to understand and figure out what is best for you.
I feel as though your happiness is more important. Therefore, knowing you’ve chosen what is best for you not only brings a smile to your face…But mine too.”
I sat at work staring at empty spaces. I couldn’t concentrate and my mind was full of questions…What does my future hold? What will happen? What should happen? What has happened?
I spent all day trying to find answers to the questions in my head, jumping from one conclusion to another. However, I was unable to grasp what I want or control what will happen in my life.
I felt my existence caused problems no-matter where I go and what I do. I felt like the words I say poison the people I love and care for the most and the issues I have slowly eat away myself and everyone close to me…I sit and blame myself for what has happend, from the very beginning.
I was so blinded by my problems and thoughts that I forgot to look around me, to look around and see that there are much greater issues than my own. Other thoughts and problems that should be in my head.
Towards the end of the day, whilst driving home…I finally took a deep breath and swallowed my problems and thoughts. I should stop thinking about tomorrow and live for today.
From today onwards I will try my best to live my life to the fullest and take everything as it comes. Plans never go accordingly and my future will always change depending on every step I take.
I seek happiness and I will never apologise for wanting to be happy every again.
Sometimes it’s best to act like you don’t know.
I don’t mind taking the blame if it’s for the greater good.”